Reflections - Month 1

I started thinking I might be pregnant when:

I took my first home pregnancy test and there was a very faint line. . . after all a line is a line right?

I found out I was pregnant when:
Being as neurotic as I am, I bought test after test (First Response Early Result, Internet Cheapies, Clear Blue Easy Digital) and I used every single one of them! From Saturday through Monday morning, I probably tested about 10 times! We stared at the lines, analyzing the darkness, took pictures and analyzed larger pictures on the computer, compared the pictures to others on various websites. With every test and every faint line I became more and more convinced (as did Alex and Jessica)! But Frank was a definite hold out! He needed to hear it from the doctor's mouth! For that reason, I tried to barge my way into our Doc's office on Monday, to no avail, as my nurse said it was still "too early!" We had to wait until Wednesday! So Tuesday night I took my first digital and within 30 seconds we got a "PREGNANT"!!! I showed Frank and he kept swiffering! hahaha . . . But he definitely started to believe then! Wednesday morning, I went to my Doc's office for a blood test and that afternoon it was confirmed!

I felt:
Well first you need to realize just how long it took us to get to this point! This cycle was our one year anniversary of trying, which included 7 cycles of constant doctor appointments, daily shots, pills, blood tests, etc.

Oddly enough, the first thing that I felt was that it was meant to happen just when it happened! That there couldn't have been a more perfect time for us to finally get our BFP (Big Fat Positive for those who don't know)!

We felt ecstatic, nervous, relieved, scared, overwhelmed, re and blessed . . . definitely blessed!

Our baby will be born:
Late August 2008! We don't have an actual EDD yet! But we'll let you know as soon as we do!

The strangest symptom of pregnancy I had this month was:
Believe it or not I'm even MORE moody and sensitive than I was before! Example, I burst into tears and had a minor breakdown making a pot of pasta! Something I do all the time! I also burst into tears while watching an episode of 90210 . . . it was the one where Valerie moves away, so I guess it wasn't too unreasonable to cry!

My hopes:
That we will have a happy and healthy nine months! That we can give our child an equally awesome childhood as I had! I loved being a kid and I want my child to have that same childlike freedom that I enjoyed. There are so many hopes and dreams to share! It may take me a while to get them all out!

My fears:
I have to admit that right now I'm totally freaked about whether this is real or not! I'm so used to being at the doctor's office every other day. . . to take a week off, without them monitoring my levels and doing daily ultrasounds, is really stressful to me! We've waited for this for so long and worked so hard for it, we just want everything to go smoothly from this point on!